Day-34: Lost Inspiration

34-Days into my liquid diet and here are some things that I know:
- Jesus didn't have Slimfast
- I miss solids
- 40-Days ago I should have bought stock in V8 & Slimfast
- I weigh less
- My primary objective still is not to lose weight
- Cooking is still enjoyable
- Beth doesn't like that I sometimes go a week without shaving
- My son's have no sympathy that I can't eat solids
- I'm starting to dream about things like buffalo chicken wings
- It is gratifying to know that people actually read my blog

34-Days into my liquid diet and here are some things that I feel / believe:
- Taking Lent seriously has improved my relationship with Jesus
- I will probably never miss the taste of tomatoes ever again
- By the end of Lent I will not have a earth shaking revelation
- Most people will not notice a difference in me, beyond a skinner me
- It only matters that I notice the spiritual / social / personal difference
- What I'm doing is inspiring others, at least in some minor way

34-Days into my liquid diet and here are some things that I fear:
- That all progress I've made disappear like the weight loss is destined to
- That at the end of Lent I'll be as confused as when I started
- That will not have inspired any onlookers
- I will have missed my spiritual target
- That I've wasted 43-Days of family meal time

It is mentally hard losing inspiration. I'm not in fear of eating, by now a liquid diet is routine. I'm just not having the mental clarity or focus that I had two weeks ago.  The mental and spiritual enthusiasm is lacking, the conversations have not been as deep or aggressive as I'd like and I'm just going through the motions.  As with any regiment, there are lulls in the progress, apparently I'm in mine.  When exercising, lulls are common. In college, with wrestling, lulls happened and the recipe for getting out of the funk is never the same. A coaches talk, a teammate's encouragement, a serious ass-kicking, an extra workout, a day off, winning a match, losing a match; the solution is different for different people at different times. I'm not sure what my solution will be to focus me for the next nine days, but I'm looking for it.

Random Notes: Started the day at 192 Lbs, finished around 1900 calories. On the plus side, I lifted with a neighbor; sadly, it did not help my funk.