Get it? "Not So Fast", because Day-35 talked about my funk and I was going to do a total fasting on Day-37, if I couldn't get out of the funk. Well, I was correct, yea me, all it took was a conversation.
Truth be told, I was a bit worried. Day-35 was a very enjoyable day, it contained some disappointment which I was able to role with and redirect. The work day ended up being very productive, but at 8:00 PM it was lacking that "it" factor I was looking for. Thankfully, a brief chat with some neighbors and nice chat with Beth helped to clear the funk from my head.
It amazes me that after 7.5 years, a twenty-minute conversation with your spouse can still leave you smiling because you fill like you understand or appreciate each other, just a little more than you did twenty-minutes prior. It wasn't that our conversation was extraordinarily deep, just that we are able to speculate a little, about what what our future holds and how we will handle the things to come. Things that we didn't think about 3, 4, 5 years ago we think about now, things that might have sacred us in the past are exciting for the future.
Last night was another step towards mental clarity and understanding what my future holds. I don't expect that 43-Days of liquids is the key to showing me all my answers, but as aged motivational speaker Zig Ziglar says "You gotta have goals!" and it is seeming as that achieving the goal of no solids is going to lead towards more goals for the future.
Jesus' plans for us are rarely clear. I know numerous people that have done things because they felt directed by the Lord and had outcomes that they did not see coming. That isn't to say they interpreted the Lord's direction incorrectly but that their mission is not over. In real time, life is rarely meant for us to understand and more for us to just "do". We need specific things to work towards, a clear direction, that carrot to make us keep moving forward. The goals that we set out for can't be sought by tunnel vision, we have to be aware of what is also going on, what might need our attention. If you to be financially sound working 100-Hours a week would be a good start, but it wouldn't leave time for family, friends, hobbies, a beer and a smile. With our goals and plans must come balance and flexibility.
The future Beth and I talked about was goal oriented, but would contain change and adaption. The plans will probably not play out how we'd prefer but it does not mean that we will not enjoy what we are left with.
Jabez from 1 Chronicles 4:9-10 had goals and he turned towards God for help with them:
Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.
1 Chronicles 4:10
That's roughly all we know about Jabez. We don't know how big his enlarged territory was or what pain he was free from, all we know that is that he asked for God's help and received it. Sometimes just knowing that it is possible is the only help we need. While I may love to have a detailed map of my future, hindsight will provide all the clarity that I truly need.
Random Notes: Started the day at 190 lbs and finished around 2,000 calories.
No comments:
Post a Comment