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Sorry - I have not been tempted to eat solids for weeks. While the idea of eating is enjoyable, Beth and I have started to plan my first meal back on solids, I'm not going to eat before then. I have wanted to eat many things:
- Chips
- Deep Fried Pickles
- Buffalo Wings
- Crackers
- Spice Crackers
- Hot Dogs
- An Apple
- Taquitos
- A Burger
- Pizza
- Well, you get the idea.
More than I need solid foods, I need focus. I'm actually leaning towards an old fashioned fasting to help with focus. I've never done a fast for focus but unless something clicks tomorrow I don't know what else to do. I'm not going to spend the next eight days revving in neutral, I'm not where I want to be, where I had hoped to be at the end of Lent, drastic measures might be in order.
I will always have room for self-improvement; I have no visions of grandeur for myself, for the end of Lent. However, I have set mental goals of sorts and hope to achieve them. Reaching where I want to be, continuing to become who I want to be is important to me. I do not want to spend the next eight days just getting skinnier.
Side note - To get current with my blog, tonight is a double entry evening. I didn't know that while I'm typing Day-35, Beth was reading Day-34 on her phone. I just looked at her and said "I'm in a mental funk", she replied "I just read that, I can't believe you've been doing this for 33-Days". The thought made me smile and I said "I know, that's effing crazy (I use the word 'effing' and not what it implies)." Beth smiled - despite being in a funk, this is a bit of a wild ride.
Anyway, before I have to start skipping all calories I'm going conversation hunting. I'm think it will be a conversation that gets my mind and focus back in gear, but I may be wrong and my hunting season is only 24 hours long. 35-Days has been interesting but is not complete. Progress needs to restart.
Random Notes: Started the day 192 lbs, will finish around 1800 calories.
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